Two Years

Two years ago today I walked into our local hospital an "intact"
woman. Intact, but diseased. I spent hours in surgery to remove a part
of my body and was declared cancer free.

Two years ago today, I became cancer free.

This is the date my doctors wanted to see me to. Well- a lifetime of
course, but first, today.

I want to be joyous and celebratory. The fact is, I'm still scared. I
haven't had a scan since the end of chemo. We believe I am still
cancer free, but can't actually say for certain. I know that until I
am able to have that scan, I will hear that quiet whisper in the back
of my head that says "what if" and "maybe" and "you don't really
know"...

But today, I will say "I made it". And leave it at that.